wasted years at Amazon
i’ve been an sde at Amazon for 5 years, and have delivered a lot of value with very long hours. felt very highly valued in the beginning. had no personal life to speak of though... with Covid hitting, and working from home and being socially isolated for so long (work was my only social outlet), i’ve become depressed. i already had a history of poor mental health, so I was susceptible to this. I couldn’t focus or find motivation to work as much, and because of that I’m now PIPed. i probably won’t make it through. it hurts to be discarded for lower perfomance after putting in a lot of sweat, but I guess that’s life seriously questioning my existence right now. hopefully things work out for me eventually. felt like sharing. TC:220k
Dont worry op, Just start caring about yourself. Companies care only about profits. You yourself told that you have put in effort for Amazon. Now its time to put effort for yourself and put the negativity in trash.. Feel free to put your thoughts on blind - i am sure there are lots here to help you out.
Years at Amazon will make sense when you get competent offers outside. Go get them. You stayed with Amazon for too long.
First off congrats on getting paid to leave Amazon! Highly recommend you to take an FMLA for a month and Leetcode and interview yourself out. I was pipped a few months ago and thought the world was over for a while. But I got through it. I wish I took severance. But I also just got two FANG offers nearly doubling my TC. I recommend the same. Feel free to message me about tips to get through the pip if that’s the route you take.
Did you survive the pip and then leave?
This is Amazon. I have been with Amazon for almost 5 years and was put into focus this Feb.
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Take the pip money and leave. Amazon is like the people that dump their wife when she is old and ugly and get a young new one. They don’t give a fuck what you’ve contributed before
One thing I learned from working at Amazon is it makes your life hell even if you are a good performer but that’s what makes you stronger. The constant fear of pip is not worth it. I have been there and experienced that. I felt my life upside down but it gets better once you move out. There are plenty of awesome companies out there so don’t worry.
Hold on to yourself. Talk to your loved ones or family they will always be there for your support. Some nice souls in here too! I believe maybe getting pip is not a good thing now but later on you will realize it was the best thing. Now you can actually focus on improving your mental health. Seek help, therapy whatever it takes. Hope you find what you are looking for. Dont give up yet.